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I am not having a very good time.
I'm finding myself really brittle. Sometimes it seems like I'm managing and getting things done, but I'm never less than 99% of the way to breaking down, and the smallest thing going wrong sends me over. I don't think this is a sustainable way of being, and every indication is that things are going to get much, much worse. I don't know how I'm going to handle any of it.
My health is continuing to decline, and now to complicate things there's probably no gender medicine program for me to apply to, and likely no money behind my state-funded medical insurance. I haven't tested it yet, in part because I don't want to get reliant on it only to have it snatched away.
I don't think it's technically illegal for me to be out in public yet, but it does feel like that's only a matter of time given the executive orders that have come down so far. I'm sleeping extremely poorly, and I'm feeling the effects of that and the stress and the distraction constantly cooking my brain. I feel like I'm being boiled in battery acid. I feel incompetent at everything; my decision making is all over the place. I'm overeating and overspending.